Day #117 – Osmosis

When I was in college I once slept on my Introduction to Economics textbook. I didn’t understand economics, it simply made NO sense to me…and I grew increasingly frustrated with folks who tried to tell me it was ‘common sense.’  Common?  To whom?

I was trying to ingest the information by osmosis.  Truth.

It was my last hope – I had read, I had studied, I had taken notes, I had gone to a tutor, I had read ‘Econ for Dummies,’ I just needed to get a D.  Just a D so it would count.

I ended up with a C- and was sort of convinced the osmosis must have worked.

One of  Webster’s definitions of osmosis is “an ability to learn and understand things gradually without much effort” (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/osmosis)

So it was either that or the praying – because it wasn’t my ‘sudden’ understanding of the material.

This morning during worship I was thinking the same thing – about Tucker.

Now, to be clear I don’t think many of us at age 12 loved going to worship.  It was something you did to make your parents happy – or you knew your friends would be there.  So, worship was less about God and more about fulfilling my social life. Whichever…I still went…

This morning during worship I was thinking the same thing – about Tucker.

Yes, he was there to make me happy.  He didn’t even question the ‘going.’

Yes, he was there because he has friends there.

Beyond that – nothing. So, I began thinking about osmosis.  I hope his faith is encouraged by osmosis.

By simply being in worship – he has to be getting something, right?

Osmosis, by nature, is a passive form of exchange.  It just happens. If you find yourself in some environment, it just happens.  I sat in the pew this morning thinking faith, osmosis, and autism.  I don’t have to do anything to receive God’s love (at least in my faith).  It simply happens by grace alone, kind of like osmosis.

Autism also just happens – there are all kinds of arguments about why (that I will someday blog about – but not today).  Honestly, it just doesn’t matter to me.  It is what it is.

We’ve learned how to deal with autism by osmosis, we’ve made changes in our lives because we have grown to learn and understand…although the effort has, at times, been great.

The effort was great this morning.  Tucker is just out of whack.  He’s overly tired.  His schedule is a mess. He’s not much different from any other child at the end of winter break.  I get that – but the difference is that he cannot fake it.

No matter how much we try to create ‘right’ conditions for him – autism forces me to truly think about the fruits of the spirit. One of my very favorite passages – and a life-living mantra…

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Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  Against such things there is no law.

Repeat to self as Tucker begins to cry.

Repeat to self as he refuses to take sermon notes for confirmation.

Repeat to self as he puts his head on the pew in front of us.

Repeat to self as he closes his eyes.

Repeat to self as he’s messing around with the offering cards.

Repeat to self as he’s wiggling like never before.

Repeat. Repeat, Repeat.

So, there I sat.  Praying that Tucker’s faith is strengthened by osmosis.

Yesterday a reader of [now] two adult children on the spectrum gave me a couple of Bible verses that helped her through their High School and College years.  Both of her children earned Bachelor’s Degree’s and I told her that I would treasure her contact and advice in the coming years.  She sent me two Bible verses, I read them last night.

So…I sat praying of osmosis, thinking about the fruits of the spirit, and reciting what she shared: If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you (James 1:5).

At times, I don’t have the wisdom (like this morning) – I need generous giving (like those fruits) to my son.  I need no fault-finding.

Seems that God is a fan of those fruits…and possibly believes in osmosis.  While I know that strong discipleship is preferred, I just have to believe that him being there is enough.

It has to be enough for today.

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2 thoughts on “Day #117 – Osmosis

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